Sunshine???

I woke up today and peeped through the window when i saw this :

 

clear blue sky and warm bright sunshine !!!!!! :D :D :D

Only when i was happily grabbing my relatively thin jacket when i saw this:

sunny :D
8.1 :D
but with a minus in front

Crap.

Sweetie Pie ♥

" Tee...cher...i want my mummy.." her wet little eyes met mine. My heart ached a little. I wiped away her tiny tears.

" Oh sweety, mummy will be here after school k? She loves you a lot. But mummy needs to work. And Yiyi needs to learn. Look, you have so so many friends here. There are Sheela, Siti, Emily, Weiwei... They don't cry. Now tell teacher, how old is Yiyi?"

She raised her hand and showed me 4 fingers.
"One..two..three..four...Yiyi is 4 years old. Big girl now, big girl don't cry. C'mon, let's go and sit with your friends." I explained to her.

" Teecher, when is school over?" she did not give in.

"At 12pm. Only 3 hours from now. " i pointed at the 12 on my watch.

" How long is 3 hours teecher? " Puzzled, she looked at me.

3 hours is 180 minutes or 10800seconds or 12.5% of a day or when u finished 10 Calculus questions in the exam hall or traveling from Taiping to Kuala Lumpur by car or a movie + romantic dinner evening with your boy friend. =.=
Ok...of course i did not answer that.

"When you finish writing your 'apple' and colour this cute little dinosaur here, and then finish the yummy sandwich in your lunch box, and then sing and play with your friends, then we will sing " thank you teacher, goodbye teacher, goodbye my friends, kay? " i patted her head.

She nodded doubtfully and broke into a little smile :)

Sweetie, teacher misses you ♥

香喷喷pseudo-卤肉饭

cheng cheng!!!


cooking simply drives away my winter blues and pre-exam depression :D :D :D

this is a pseudo version because the authentic one should have looked like this:

with minced pork instead :)
(Photo taken from Wikipedia)


Ingredients:

pork belly

garlic, shallot, ginger, star anise

a duck laid 6 hard-boiled eggs =.=

 

too bad i can't get some 'xiu pak choy' and 'lap cheong' aka chinese sausage. Else i can sell this for RM10.90* per bowl  :D

*5% government tax and 10% service charge apply.
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Pardon the poor english and pictures and content.
Really need to continue start studying!!!

成长

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

I need...

to breakthrough,

I need...

an angel.

Surely...

this is not what it's like to pursue happiness.

Red Happiness

What i do in a lazy Sunday afternoon..


Ingredients: red bean, barley, brown rice, red date, wolf berry, honey
Simmer with slow cooker overnight and...

Tada!!!!






Title's credit goes to Sam.(Thanks Sam :D)

扫尘除垢

扫心里的尘，除心里的垢

Au revoir

Dear Beebee,

Year 2009 has finally came to an end. And so are things between us. We finally did it. The one thing that only seems right to do. After so many years, after so many arguments, after so many fights, after so many patching ups, after so many kisses, so many hugs, so much tears, so much laughter, so many phone calls, skype calls, sms-s...

Everyday i wake up, i know it's another day, of the many days in the many months that i will need to let go of things, to let go of us, to let go of you and eventually to move on with life...my life without you. Everyday is a brand new day. Everyday new things awaits me to explore them. Everyday new interesting people are coming into my life as well as taking leave with and without my notice. Everyday is full of hope and unexpected suprises and adventures. Stepping into the cold, breathing the fresh chilly winter air, i suddenly realised that the world is still as beautiful as the way it was, even without you. And from that moment onwards, my heart weights a little lighter. May yours too.

Even though memories keep replaying and flashing in my mind now and then and there are unfulfilled dreams and promises between you and me, i know it doesn't hurt me anymore, to think that the special chemistry and bond between us are history now. But we tried our best. We fought for it. We enjoyed when we could. We loved each other so much. There is nothing to be regretted. Sadly, there is always a 'but' in a story. Two straight lines with different gradients will meet at a certain point of time, but if those lines were to be extrapolated eventually, they go separate ways. In fact, the further they become from each other as time goes by. Prince and princess can't always live happily ever after in reality. Yes. It's reality that won the battle :)

Merry Christmas to you and may you have a happy and blessed new year 2010: A new chapter in both our lives.
To love, to life, to hope. Cheers.

Best wishes with all the remaining love i have and had for you,
Your sweetheart



p.s: i’m growing up and learning so much now. i will be the better, stronger woman that you’ve always wanted to see me become. In the near future.

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you


~i never told you by Colbie Caillat~

Note to self

need to:

1. expect less: yes homo sapiens are selfish creatures. And i am human.
2. appreciate: Human are greedy. I am from planet earth.
3. be happy: Smile, what's the use of crying? You'll find that life is still worthwhile. If you just smile
4. eat
5. sleep early
6. exercise
7. learn basic of photography: so that i can share more nice stuff. see~ i'm so good to my readers.
8. study
9. study
10. study

need to stop:

1. facebooking..and commenting on jun xiang's latest awesome photos taken with his new DSLR.
2. chit chat chit chat chit chat
3. browsing and reading new recipes when there are 500 slides of lecture notes left untouched.
4. pondering over questions about life: life is maze
5. pondering over questions about love: love is a riddle

Lesson 14: 次谨信

凡出言 信为先 诈与妄 奚可焉
解说：凡是开口说话，首先要讲究信用，欺诈不实的言语，在社会上可以永远行得通吗?

无心非 名为错 有心非 名为恶 过能改 归于无 倘掩饰 增一辜
解说：不是有心故意做错的 ，称为过错；若是明知故犯的，便是罪恶。不小心犯了过错，能勇于改正就会越改越少，渐归于无过，如果故意掩盖过错，那反而又增加一项掩饰的罪过 了。

“最好的礼物是忠言， 最好的修养是宽恕”
-佛光菜根谭-

祖先的智慧， 愿与大家共勉之。

给一个知己

I was doing my usual weekend shopping when i found this *beaming*

:D


And i wrote something in it today...
.
.
.
.
.
.

Tada!!!

(i know i know..my Chinese handwriting sucks :p)

我感恩你的忠言

Tragic Supper

i tripped and nearly fell. But i managed to balance myself. The bowl that contained my almost perfect half-boiled eggs slided off the plate and crashed onto the floor. My fresh-from-oven-buns rolled down the staircase. FML. I stood rooted to the ground for few seconds.

"Pick up the buns. They are edible " my brain commanded coldly. Numb with shock i picked up those precious buns which are my dinner+supper while staring at those eggs in grief. Oh boy, tragic.

"The mess on the floor will have to wait. " my grumpy stomach was protesting. Temperature dropped below 0 outside. Silently i walked towards my room, leaving those eggs lying helpless all over the staircase.

When i started to learn baking...

Nov 2009: Mr. Lambert's Birthday

Chocolate Rum Cake with Chocolate Ganache

Dec 2009: Christmas

Lemon Curd Mousse

Photos are courtesy of Jun Xiang.

大海

Nightmare

My fingers typed furiously on the black keyboard. I clicked on the 'comment' button.
'Bist du sicher, dass du deine Verbindung mit ihm entfernen möchtest?" I moved the cursor over 'Ja'. But little did i know that after few weeks..

I felt so helpless and alone. My alarm continued to beep. But my brain refused to let go of that connection. I continued to fall and fall, into the endless unknown black hole of dreamland.

Gasping for air, i woke up. An hour later than i intended to. I lied breathlessly under my thick blanket, curling into a ball, sleepy beside me, hoping that all anguish will vanish into thin air like water vapour. " Just leave me alone now that your selfish wish came true, " i whispered weakly.
(sleepy is a bear, my sleeping mate, who is assigned a duty similar to a lullaby. Hence, the name sleepy. Yes, i am that creative.)

I splashed cold water on my face. Away you go, nasty Mr. Gloomy! It's the third time since Christmas. Please let this be the last. Now that my mind is cleared and i tried hard to recall what happened in that dream, i could think of nothing. Perhaps it is better this way. Ignorance is bliss.

But i realised one thing, no matter how many 'delete' i clicked, no matter how encounter in future is avoided, no matter how much i wanted and have erased history and memory, through a way we are still connected and there isn't any 'delete' or 'disable' button. None. Nichts. Tiada. 无。

I hate nightmares.

White Winter is Love

Tiny snow flakes are playing hide and seek in the misty cold air outside my window when i am writing this. Now and then they stop dancing gracefully and start to swirl with enthusiasm and excitement along with Mr. Wind. Often, i try to find the rhythm of the nature and let my heart beats synchronize with it. In that way i find bliss.

View from my balcony.

Welcome to Kampung Burgsteinfurt :D

My sole connection to the outside world *pathetic*

Spotted: Old man with his giant husky out for a lazy afternoon 'chill' :D :D :D *Hearts*

*couldn't take any better photo with my K770i phone camera*

Footprints on snow :D :D :D

Letting your shoes sink into the 10cm thick fluffy snow and leaving foot prints behind is *heartsss*

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes

Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes

Silver white winters that melt into springs

These are a few of my favourite things

When the dog barks

When the bee stings

When i'm feeling sad

I simply remember my favourite things

And then i don't feel so bad.

Yes, white winter is one of my favourite things. And when i'm feeling bad, i simply have to remember them all :D

Simply ♥ white winter.

World Greatest Dad

I watched the movie 'World Greatest Dad' recently. It reminds me of my dad. (Daddy, i miss you)

Tonight, i was browsing through a recipe book when a piece of paper slipped onto the floor. Written neatly on it are simple loving words and reminders of a father.



Every sentence, albeit short, touches my heart.




I read the note again and again. Being away from home, facing the many distractions and new adventures in this big big world, i almost forgot those words. Yes, my duty as a daughter slipped my mind. Yes, i almost forgot how his hair thins and grays as time passes by. And then i lost count of those wrinkles around his eyes every time he frowned when we misbehaved.



A humble, strict but loving father he is.
And I am proud to be his daughter.
I hope one day, i would make him proud too.
Simply because what they taught me: "亲爱我 孝何难"

Happy birthday, dad.