每次到了夜深人靜的時候我總是睡不著
我懷疑是不是只有我的明天沒有變得更好
未來會怎樣究竟有誰會知道
幸福是否只是一種傳說我永遠都找不到
 
我是一隻小小小小鳥　
想要飛呀飛卻飛也飛不高
我尋尋覓覓尋尋覓覓一個溫暖的懷抱　
這樣的要求算不算太高

所有知道我的名字的人啊你們好不好
世界是如此的小　我們註定無處可逃
當我嚐盡人情冷暖　當你決定為了你的理想燃燒
生活的壓力與生命的尊嚴那一個重要

Birthday month.
Exam month.
Second half of the year.
Second chance.
Let me make it right this time.

And Summer's lease hath all too short a date

 

So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

ich schaff das!!!

Absence makes the heart grows fonder

‎"Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires." - Francois de La Rochefoucauld

 Another test tomorrow. And i am flying home :)

Breakfast

Oats, milk, kiwi, banana and blueberries. I couldn't think of a better way to start my Sunday morning. Mr. Weather has turned significantly gentle recently :D Today it's cloudy with seconds long sunny intervals because Mr. Sun is playing hide and seek with the thick dark clouds. It does take some determination to drag myself out of bed in this perfect weather to sleep in.

If you ask me what is the most frequent cause that prompted me to be late for school when i was younger, my answer would be: My dad cooked us oats for breakfast! I used to drag my school bag to the front gate and then stamped my foot aggrievedly while waiting for my sister taking ages to finish her bowl of plain oats with raisins or apple (oats cooked with plain water with neither addition of sugar nor milk). Now i often suspect that this is the key factor of why i developed a distaste for raisins. (dad, if you are reading this, i feel sorry :p)
But i certainly miss those tasteless oats!

Valentine

 A friend shared this on Facebook.




Sweet.

Fragility

 I have been so dependent on the internet that the first thing i do in a weekend morning after brushing my teeth is to turn on my laptop, sign in messengers and check my mailbox. And oh guess what i got in my inbox today: 7 things that one shouldn't do on Facebook, another reminder to stay aware of own privacy in this social networking world.

Studying overseas makes me realised how crucial a roll technology has in my daily life keeping me in touch with my family and friends at home. But today it suddenly struck me so so hard that technology makes love fragile and brittle. One can choose not to pick up certain calls, reply certain emails or messages be it on Facebook, Messengers, or even SMS. And what's even better, you don't have to feel sorry for that: simply reply a text message: hi sweetie i'm so sorry but i'm having this terrible sore throat, or pretend that you are the roomie on Messanger and type away: hi i'm xxx's roomie and he/she is currently not at home.

Check out the preview of next version of Window Live Messenger,which makes it even easier: you can apply different status to different contacts(note: 1:40 of the video) , maybe you are scheduled to date this boyfriend online today and you wouldn't want the other boyfriend to find out that since you are supposed to be attending your weekly yoga class.



So who is friend and who is foe?

我不夠認份
所以怕再為誰作出犧牲
愛要有天份
所以我始終學不會放任
我不夠天真
不允許我傻傻的等
對自己殘忍
多 殘忍 我要有分寸

我太過認真
所以才相信所謂的永恆
愛讓人恍神
所以止不住不小心沉淪
我太負責任
不允許有太多悔恨
對自己坦誠
多坦誠 我自有分寸

我只是無辜的人
很需要歎氣聲
有一些文字的吻
只留 給傷過的人
明知道有些問題
沒有答案還是要問
原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生

Blossom

It's spring.i love spring. How could one don't?

Been having such lovely time with friends i adore.

 Favourite activity in spring: bbq in Westpark, Aachen.

Cologne is one of the cities in Germany that i love :D.

 Taken by the River Rhein.

Spent a lovely Saturday indulging in yummylicious Ramen and strolling through a park in Düsseldorf.

 

Oh those lovely tulips and flower beds!

p.s: i stole most of the pictures from Jun Xiang, our genius photographer :)

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Attempted to bake japanese cheese cake too during the weekend, but friends thought that it could do with stronger cheese flavour.

Relocation

I moved. It's the 5th time i moved since 2006. This time into an old pre-World War II bungalow.

The brown wallpaper smells of history. And I could almost hear the coloured glass whispering stories of the house and its past inhabitants.

The owner is a lovely generous German old lady in her eighties, who used to work as clinic assistant before she married a handsome gorgeous Pole (i assumed) whose first wife died of breast cancer.

I dislike moving. The amount of dust and dirt we have to clean, the thousands meters that we walked,and the energy spent on every single screws and nuts when dismantling and assembling 3 large wardrobes, 2 beds and several tables and chairs are disaster. The task seemed impossible, but here i am now sitting in my new room typing off my laptop. Of course i couldn't have done it without all my friends.

We did not record much of this unforgettable experience on Labor Day.
Here is a sneak peek of them assembling one of the wardrobes :D

Ich danke euch vom ganzen Herzen für eure liebe Hilfe.

Oh and we have got a garden!

Kau Ilhamku

Beribu bintang dilangit

Kini menghilang

Meraba aku dalam kelam

Rembulan mengambang

Kini makin suram

Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul

Dalam diam

Ada kerdipan ada sinar

Itukah bintang atau rembulan

Terima kasih kuucapkan

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu

Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu

Maafkanlah oh...

Andai lagu ini

Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu

Kau senyumlah oh...

Sekadar memori

Kita di arena ini

Kau ilhamku

Kau ilhamku...

Endorphins

They say chocolate makes people happy :)

perhaps butterflies too :D

Potential New Home!

4 units in a big mansion :D
The one on ground floor on the left side could be ours*big wet eyes*



Big living room which could be so comfy and cozy if we had the money to furnish it.



One of the three bedrooms


Balcony!!! space for few pots of summer flowers and and and BBQ~~ We always have bbq when the weather is warmer *heartsss*


Kitchen which need lots and lots of $$$$ to be furnished T_T fridge, oven, stove, cabinets....

*keeping fingers crossed all the time so that we could get the contract* need to settle this matter ASAP!!!

Carnation

Mummy i love you i love you i love you! so soooo much :D

What i got in the mail

Distance: 10000+ km
Duration: 8 weeks
Weight: 9.73 kg
Content: Love, an awful lot

Sunshine???

I woke up today and peeped through the window when i saw this :

 

clear blue sky and warm bright sunshine !!!!!! :D :D :D

Only when i was happily grabbing my relatively thin jacket when i saw this:

sunny :D
8.1 :D
but with a minus in front

Crap.

Sweetie Pie ♥

" Tee...cher...i want my mummy.." her wet little eyes met mine. My heart ached a little. I wiped away her tiny tears.

" Oh sweety, mummy will be here after school k? She loves you a lot. But mummy needs to work. And Yiyi needs to learn. Look, you have so so many friends here. There are Sheela, Siti, Emily, Weiwei... They don't cry. Now tell teacher, how old is Yiyi?"

She raised her hand and showed me 4 fingers.
"One..two..three..four...Yiyi is 4 years old. Big girl now, big girl don't cry. C'mon, let's go and sit with your friends." I explained to her.

" Teecher, when is school over?" she did not give in.

"At 12pm. Only 3 hours from now. " i pointed at the 12 on my watch.

" How long is 3 hours teecher? " Puzzled, she looked at me.

3 hours is 180 minutes or 10800seconds or 12.5% of a day or when u finished 10 Calculus questions in the exam hall or traveling from Taiping to Kuala Lumpur by car or a movie + romantic dinner evening with your boy friend. =.=
Ok...of course i did not answer that.

"When you finish writing your 'apple' and colour this cute little dinosaur here, and then finish the yummy sandwich in your lunch box, and then sing and play with your friends, then we will sing " thank you teacher, goodbye teacher, goodbye my friends, kay? " i patted her head.

She nodded doubtfully and broke into a little smile :)

Sweetie, teacher misses you ♥

香喷喷pseudo-卤肉饭

cheng cheng!!!


cooking simply drives away my winter blues and pre-exam depression :D :D :D

this is a pseudo version because the authentic one should have looked like this:

with minced pork instead :)
(Photo taken from Wikipedia)


Ingredients:

pork belly

garlic, shallot, ginger, star anise

a duck laid 6 hard-boiled eggs =.=

 

too bad i can't get some 'xiu pak choy' and 'lap cheong' aka chinese sausage. Else i can sell this for RM10.90* per bowl  :D

*5% government tax and 10% service charge apply.
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Pardon the poor english and pictures and content.
Really need to continue start studying!!!

成长

哭过就好了
痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方

I need...

to breakthrough,

I need...

an angel.