31 Oct 2010
20 Sept 2010
Absence makes the heart grows fonder
"Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires." - Francois de La RochefoucauldAnother test tomorrow. And i am flying home :)
30 May 2010
Breakfast
Oats, milk, kiwi, banana and blueberries. I couldn't think of a better way to start my Sunday morning. Mr. Weather has turned significantly gentle recently :D Today it's cloudy with seconds long sunny intervals because Mr. Sun is playing hide and seek with the thick dark clouds. It does take some determination to drag myself out of bed in this perfect weather to sleep in.
If you ask me what is the most frequent cause that prompted me to be late for school when i was younger, my answer would be: My dad cooked us oats for breakfast! I used to drag my school bag to the front gate and then stamped my foot aggrievedly while waiting for my sister taking ages to finish her bowl of plain oats with raisins or apple (oats cooked with plain water with neither addition of sugar nor milk). Now i often suspect that this is the key factor of why i developed a distaste for raisins. (dad, if you are reading this, i feel sorry :p)
But i certainly miss those tasteless oats!
14 May 2010
Fragility
I have been so dependent on the internet that the first thing i do in a weekend morning after brushing my teeth is to turn on my laptop, sign in messengers and check my mailbox. And oh guess what i got in my inbox today: 7 things that one shouldn't do on Facebook, another reminder to stay aware of own privacy in this social networking world.
Studying overseas makes me realised how crucial a roll technology has in my daily life keeping me in touch with my family and friends at home. But today it suddenly struck me so so hard that technology makes love fragile and brittle. One can choose not to pick up certain calls, reply certain emails or messages be it on Facebook, Messengers, or even SMS. And what's even better, you don't have to feel sorry for that: simply reply a text message: hi sweetie i'm so sorry but i'm having this terrible sore throat, or pretend that you are the roomie on Messanger and type away: hi i'm xxx's roomie and he/she is currently not at home.
Check out the preview of next version of Window Live Messenger,which makes it even easier: you can apply different status to different contacts(note: 1:40 of the video) , maybe you are scheduled to date this boyfriend online today and you wouldn't want the other boyfriend to find out that since you are supposed to be attending your weekly yoga class.
So who is friend and who is foe?
我不夠認份
所以怕再為誰作出犧牲
愛要有天份
所以我始終學不會放任
我不夠天真
不允許我傻傻的等
對自己殘忍
多 殘忍 我要有分寸
我太過認真
所以才相信所謂的永恆
愛讓人恍神
所以止不住不小心沉淪
我太負責任
不允許有太多悔恨
對自己坦誠
多坦誠 我自有分寸
我只是無辜的人
很需要歎氣聲
有一些文字的吻
只留 給傷過的人
明知道有些問題
沒有答案還是要問
原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生
Studying overseas makes me realised how crucial a roll technology has in my daily life keeping me in touch with my family and friends at home. But today it suddenly struck me so so hard that technology makes love fragile and brittle. One can choose not to pick up certain calls, reply certain emails or messages be it on Facebook, Messengers, or even SMS. And what's even better, you don't have to feel sorry for that: simply reply a text message: hi sweetie i'm so sorry but i'm having this terrible sore throat, or pretend that you are the roomie on Messanger and type away: hi i'm xxx's roomie and he/she is currently not at home.
Check out the preview of next version of Window Live Messenger,which makes it even easier: you can apply different status to different contacts(note: 1:40 of the video) , maybe you are scheduled to date this boyfriend online today and you wouldn't want the other boyfriend to find out that since you are supposed to be attending your weekly yoga class.
So who is friend and who is foe?
我不夠認份
所以怕再為誰作出犧牲
愛要有天份
所以我始終學不會放任
我不夠天真
不允許我傻傻的等
對自己殘忍
多 殘忍 我要有分寸
我太過認真
所以才相信所謂的永恆
愛讓人恍神
所以止不住不小心沉淪
我太負責任
不允許有太多悔恨
對自己坦誠
多坦誠 我自有分寸
我只是無辜的人
很需要歎氣聲
有一些文字的吻
只留 給傷過的人
明知道有些問題
沒有答案還是要問
原諒我 因為我就是 這樣的女生
13 May 2010
Blossom
It's spring.i love spring. How could one don't?
Been having such lovely time with friends i adore.
Favourite activity in spring: bbq in Westpark, Aachen.
Cologne is one of the cities in Germany that i love :D.
Taken by the River Rhein.
Spent a lovely Saturday indulging in yummylicious Ramen and strolling through a park in Düsseldorf.
Oh those lovely tulips and flower beds!
p.s: i stole most of the pictures from Jun Xiang, our genius photographer :)
******
Attempted to bake japanese cheese cake too during the weekend, but friends thought that it could do with stronger cheese flavour.
Relocation
I moved. It's the 5th time i moved since 2006. This time into an old pre-World War II bungalow.
The brown wallpaper smells of history. And I could almost hear the coloured glass whispering stories of the house and its past inhabitants.
The owner is a lovely generous German old lady in her eighties, who used to work as clinic assistant before she married a handsome gorgeous Pole (i assumed) whose first wife died of breast cancer.
I dislike moving. The amount of dust and dirt we have to clean, the thousands meters that we walked,and the energy spent on every single screws and nuts when dismantling and assembling 3 large wardrobes, 2 beds and several tables and chairs are disaster. The task seemed impossible, but here i am now sitting in my new room typing off my laptop. Of course i couldn't have done it without all my friends.
We did not record much of this unforgettable experience on Labor Day.
Here is a sneak peek of them assembling one of the wardrobes :D
Oh and we have got a garden!
The brown wallpaper smells of history. And I could almost hear the coloured glass whispering stories of the house and its past inhabitants.
The owner is a lovely generous German old lady in her eighties, who used to work as clinic assistant before she married a handsome gorgeous Pole (i assumed) whose first wife died of breast cancer.
I dislike moving. The amount of dust and dirt we have to clean, the thousands meters that we walked,and the energy spent on every single screws and nuts when dismantling and assembling 3 large wardrobes, 2 beds and several tables and chairs are disaster. The task seemed impossible, but here i am now sitting in my new room typing off my laptop. Of course i couldn't have done it without all my friends.
We did not record much of this unforgettable experience on Labor Day.
Here is a sneak peek of them assembling one of the wardrobes :D
Ich danke euch vom ganzen Herzen für eure liebe Hilfe.
Oh and we have got a garden!
11 Apr 2010
Kau Ilhamku
Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah
Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang atau rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan
Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...
8 Mar 2010
Potential New Home!
4 units in a big mansion :D
The one on ground floor on the left side could be ours*big wet eyes*
Big living room which could be so comfy and cozy if we had the money to furnish it.
One of the three bedrooms
Balcony!!! space for few pots of summer flowers and and and BBQ~~ We always have bbq when the weather is warmer *heartsss*
Kitchen which need lots and lots of $$$$ to be furnished T_T fridge, oven, stove, cabinets....
*keeping fingers crossed all the time so that we could get the contract* need to settle this matter ASAP!!!
25 Feb 2010
7 Feb 2010
What i got in the mail
Distance: 10000+ kmDuration: 8 weeks
Weight: 9.73 kg
Content: Love, an awful lot
26 Jan 2010
Sunshine???
I woke up today and peeped through the window when i saw this :
clear blue sky and warm bright sunshine !!!!!! :D :D :D
Only when i was happily grabbing my relatively thin jacket when i saw this:
sunny :D
8.1 :D
but with a minus in front
Crap.
8.1 :D
but with a minus in front
Crap.
Sweetie Pie ♥
" Tee...cher...i want my mummy.." her wet little eyes met mine. My heart ached a little. I wiped away her tiny tears.
" Oh sweety, mummy will be here after school k? She loves you a lot. But mummy needs to work. And Yiyi needs to learn. Look, you have so so many friends here. There are Sheela, Siti, Emily, Weiwei... They don't cry. Now tell teacher, how old is Yiyi?"
She raised her hand and showed me 4 fingers.
"One..two..three..four...Yiyi is 4 years old. Big girl now, big girl don't cry. C'mon, let's go and sit with your friends." I explained to her.
" Teecher, when is school over?" she did not give in.
"At 12pm. Only 3 hours from now. " i pointed at the 12 on my watch.
" How long is 3 hours teecher? " Puzzled, she looked at me.
3 hours is 180 minutes or 10800seconds or 12.5% of a day or when u finished 10 Calculus questions in the exam hall or traveling from Taiping to Kuala Lumpur by car or a movie + romantic dinner evening with your boy friend. =.=
Ok...of course i did not answer that.
"When you finish writing your 'apple' and colour this cute little dinosaur here, and then finish the yummy sandwich in your lunch box, and then sing and play with your friends, then we will sing " thank you teacher, goodbye teacher, goodbye my friends, kay? " i patted her head.
She nodded doubtfully and broke into a little smile :)
Sweetie, teacher misses you ♥
" Oh sweety, mummy will be here after school k? She loves you a lot. But mummy needs to work. And Yiyi needs to learn. Look, you have so so many friends here. There are Sheela, Siti, Emily, Weiwei... They don't cry. Now tell teacher, how old is Yiyi?"
She raised her hand and showed me 4 fingers.
"One..two..three..four...Yiyi is 4 years old. Big girl now, big girl don't cry. C'mon, let's go and sit with your friends." I explained to her.
" Teecher, when is school over?" she did not give in.
"At 12pm. Only 3 hours from now. " i pointed at the 12 on my watch.
" How long is 3 hours teecher? " Puzzled, she looked at me.
3 hours is 180 minutes or 10800seconds or 12.5% of a day or when u finished 10 Calculus questions in the exam hall or traveling from Taiping to Kuala Lumpur by car or a movie + romantic dinner evening with your boy friend. =.=
Ok...of course i did not answer that.
"When you finish writing your 'apple' and colour this cute little dinosaur here, and then finish the yummy sandwich in your lunch box, and then sing and play with your friends, then we will sing " thank you teacher, goodbye teacher, goodbye my friends, kay? " i patted her head.
She nodded doubtfully and broke into a little smile :)
Sweetie, teacher misses you ♥
25 Jan 2010
香喷喷pseudo-卤肉饭
cheng cheng!!!
cooking simply drives away my winter blues and pre-exam depression :D :D :D
this is a pseudo version because the authentic one should have looked like this:
with minced pork instead :)
(Photo taken from Wikipedia)
Ingredients:
pork belly
garlic, shallot, ginger, star anise
a duck laid 6 hard-boiled eggs =.=
too bad i can't get some 'xiu pak choy' and 'lap cheong' aka chinese sausage. Else i can sell this for RM10.90* per bowl :D
*5% government tax and 10% service charge apply.
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Pardon the poor english and pictures and content.
Really need tocontinue start studying!!!
cooking simply drives away my winter blues and pre-exam depression :D :D :D
this is a pseudo version because the authentic one should have looked like this:
(Photo taken from Wikipedia)
Ingredients:
too bad i can't get some 'xiu pak choy' and 'lap cheong' aka chinese sausage. Else i can sell this for RM10.90* per bowl :D
*5% government tax and 10% service charge apply.
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Pardon the poor english and pictures and content.
Really need to
24 Jan 2010
21 Jan 2010
19 Jan 2010
17 Jan 2010
Red Happiness
What i do in a lazy Sunday afternoon..
Ingredients: red bean, barley, brown rice, red date, wolf berry, honey
Simmer with slow cooker overnight and...
Tada!!!!
Title's credit goes to Sam.(Thanks Sam :D)
Ingredients: red bean, barley, brown rice, red date, wolf berry, honey
Simmer with slow cooker overnight and...
Tada!!!!
Title's credit goes to Sam.(Thanks Sam :D)
16 Jan 2010
Au revoir
Dear Beebee,
Year 2009 has finally came to an end. And so are things between us. We finally did it. The one thing that only seems right to do. After so many years, after so many arguments, after so many fights, after so many patching ups, after so many kisses, so many hugs, so much tears, so much laughter, so many phone calls, skype calls, sms-s...
Everyday i wake up, i know it's another day, of the many days in the many months that i will need to let go of things, to let go of us, to let go of you and eventually to move on with life...my life without you. Everyday is a brand new day. Everyday new things awaits me to explore them. Everyday new interesting people are coming into my life as well as taking leave with and without my notice. Everyday is full of hope and unexpected suprises and adventures. Stepping into the cold, breathing the fresh chilly winter air, i suddenly realised that the world is still as beautiful as the way it was, even without you. And from that moment onwards, my heart weights a little lighter. May yours too.
Even though memories keep replaying and flashing in my mind now and then and there are unfulfilled dreams and promises between you and me, i know it doesn't hurt me anymore, to think that the special chemistry and bond between us are history now. But we tried our best. We fought for it. We enjoyed when we could. We loved each other so much. There is nothing to be regretted. Sadly, there is always a 'but' in a story. Two straight lines with different gradients will meet at a certain point of time, but if those lines were to be extrapolated eventually, they go separate ways. In fact, the further they become from each other as time goes by. Prince and princess can't always live happily ever after in reality. Yes. It's reality that won the battle :)
Merry Christmas to you and may you have a happy and blessed new year 2010: A new chapter in both our lives.
To love, to life, to hope. Cheers.
Best wishes with all the remaining love i have and had for you,
Your sweetheart
p.s: i’m growing up and learning so much now. i will be the better, stronger woman that you’ve always wanted to see me become. In the near future.
I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
~i never told you by Colbie Caillat~
Year 2009 has finally came to an end. And so are things between us. We finally did it. The one thing that only seems right to do. After so many years, after so many arguments, after so many fights, after so many patching ups, after so many kisses, so many hugs, so much tears, so much laughter, so many phone calls, skype calls, sms-s...
Everyday i wake up, i know it's another day, of the many days in the many months that i will need to let go of things, to let go of us, to let go of you and eventually to move on with life...my life without you. Everyday is a brand new day. Everyday new things awaits me to explore them. Everyday new interesting people are coming into my life as well as taking leave with and without my notice. Everyday is full of hope and unexpected suprises and adventures. Stepping into the cold, breathing the fresh chilly winter air, i suddenly realised that the world is still as beautiful as the way it was, even without you. And from that moment onwards, my heart weights a little lighter. May yours too.
Even though memories keep replaying and flashing in my mind now and then and there are unfulfilled dreams and promises between you and me, i know it doesn't hurt me anymore, to think that the special chemistry and bond between us are history now. But we tried our best. We fought for it. We enjoyed when we could. We loved each other so much. There is nothing to be regretted. Sadly, there is always a 'but' in a story. Two straight lines with different gradients will meet at a certain point of time, but if those lines were to be extrapolated eventually, they go separate ways. In fact, the further they become from each other as time goes by. Prince and princess can't always live happily ever after in reality. Yes. It's reality that won the battle :)
Merry Christmas to you and may you have a happy and blessed new year 2010: A new chapter in both our lives.
To love, to life, to hope. Cheers.
Best wishes with all the remaining love i have and had for you,
Your sweetheart
p.s: i’m growing up and learning so much now. i will be the better, stronger woman that you’ve always wanted to see me become. In the near future.
I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
~i never told you by Colbie Caillat~
Note to self
need to:
- expect less: yes homo sapiens are selfish creatures. And i am human.
- appreciate: Human are greedy. I am from planet earth.
- be happy: Smile, what's the use of crying? You'll find that life is still worthwhile. If you just smile
- eat
- sleep early
- exercise
- learn basic of photography: so that i can share more nice stuff. see~ i'm so good to my readers.
- study
- study
- study
- facebooking..and commenting on jun xiang's latest awesome photos taken with his new DSLR.
- chit chat chit chat chit chat
- browsing and reading new recipes when there are 500 slides of lecture notes left untouched.
- pondering over questions about life: life is maze
- pondering over questions about love: love is a riddle
13 Jan 2010
Lesson 14: 次谨信
12 Jan 2010
给一个知己
I was doing my usual weekend shopping when i found this *beaming*
:D
And i wrote something in it today...
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.
.
.
Tada!!!
And i wrote something in it today...
.
.
.
.
.
.
Tada!!!
(i know i know..my Chinese handwriting sucks :p)
我感恩你的忠言
9 Jan 2010
Tragic Supper
i tripped and nearly fell. But i managed to balance myself. The bowl that contained my almost perfect half-boiled eggs slided off the plate and crashed onto the floor. My fresh-from-oven-buns rolled down the staircase. FML. I stood rooted to the ground for few seconds.
"Pick up the buns. They are edible " my brain commanded coldly. Numb with shock i picked up those precious buns which are my dinner+supper while staring at those eggs in grief. Oh boy, tragic.
"The mess on the floor will have to wait. " my grumpy stomach was protesting. Temperature dropped below 0 outside. Silently i walked towards my room, leaving those eggs lying helpless all over the staircase.
"Pick up the buns. They are edible " my brain commanded coldly. Numb with shock i picked up those precious buns which are my dinner+supper while staring at those eggs in grief. Oh boy, tragic.
"The mess on the floor will have to wait. " my grumpy stomach was protesting. Temperature dropped below 0 outside. Silently i walked towards my room, leaving those eggs lying helpless all over the staircase.
When i started to learn baking...
Nov 2009: Mr. Lambert's Birthday
Chocolate Rum Cake with Chocolate Ganache
Dec 2009: Christmas
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Lemon Curd Mousse
Photos are courtesy of Jun Xiang.
Chocolate Rum Cake with Chocolate Ganache
Dec 2009: Christmas
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Lemon Curd Mousse
Photos are courtesy of Jun Xiang.
7 Jan 2010
Nightmare
My fingers typed furiously on the black keyboard. I clicked on the 'comment' button.
'Bist du sicher, dass du deine Verbindung mit ihm entfernen möchtest?" I moved the cursor over 'Ja'. But little did i know that after few weeks..
I felt so helpless and alone. My alarm continued to beep. But my brain refused to let go of that connection. I continued to fall and fall, into the endless unknown black hole of dreamland.
Gasping for air, i woke up. An hour later than i intended to. I lied breathlessly under my thick blanket, curling into a ball, sleepy beside me, hoping that all anguish will vanish into thin air like water vapour. " Just leave me alone now that your selfish wish came true, " i whispered weakly.
(sleepy is a bear, my sleeping mate, who is assigned a duty similar to a lullaby. Hence, the name sleepy. Yes, i am that creative.)
I splashed cold water on my face. Away you go, nasty Mr. Gloomy! It's the third time since Christmas. Please let this be the last. Now that my mind is cleared and i tried hard to recall what happened in that dream, i could think of nothing. Perhaps it is better this way. Ignorance is bliss.
But i realised one thing, no matter how many 'delete' i clicked, no matter how encounter in future is avoided, no matter how much i wanted and have erased history and memory, through a way we are still connected and there isn't any 'delete' or 'disable' button. None. Nichts. Tiada. 无。
I hate nightmares.
'Bist du sicher, dass du deine Verbindung mit ihm entfernen möchtest?" I moved the cursor over 'Ja'. But little did i know that after few weeks..
I felt so helpless and alone. My alarm continued to beep. But my brain refused to let go of that connection. I continued to fall and fall, into the endless unknown black hole of dreamland.
Gasping for air, i woke up. An hour later than i intended to. I lied breathlessly under my thick blanket, curling into a ball, sleepy beside me, hoping that all anguish will vanish into thin air like water vapour. " Just leave me alone now that your selfish wish came true, " i whispered weakly.
(sleepy is a bear, my sleeping mate, who is assigned a duty similar to a lullaby. Hence, the name sleepy. Yes, i am that creative.)
I splashed cold water on my face. Away you go, nasty Mr. Gloomy! It's the third time since Christmas. Please let this be the last. Now that my mind is cleared and i tried hard to recall what happened in that dream, i could think of nothing. Perhaps it is better this way. Ignorance is bliss.
But i realised one thing, no matter how many 'delete' i clicked, no matter how encounter in future is avoided, no matter how much i wanted and have erased history and memory, through a way we are still connected and there isn't any 'delete' or 'disable' button. None. Nichts. Tiada. 无。
I hate nightmares.
4 Jan 2010
White Winter is Love
Tiny snow flakes are playing hide and seek in the misty cold air outside my window when i am writing this. Now and then they stop dancing gracefully and start to swirl with enthusiasm and excitement along with Mr. Wind. Often, i try to find the rhythm of the nature and let my heart beats synchronize with it. In that way i find bliss.
View from my balcony.
Welcome to Kampung Burgsteinfurt :D
My sole connection to the outside world *pathetic*
Spotted: Old man with his giant husky out for a lazy afternoon 'chill' :D :D :D *Hearts*
*couldn't take any better photo with my K770i phone camera*
Footprints on snow :D :D :D
Letting your shoes sink into the 10cm thick fluffy snow and leaving foot prints behind is *heartsss*
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favourite things
When the dog barks
When the dog barks
When the bee stings
When i'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favourite things
And then i don't feel so bad.
Yes, white winter is one of my favourite things. And when i'm feeling bad, i simply have to remember them all :D
Simply ♥ white winter.
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